I’m Over It: Today’s Struggles in Full Force

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You ever have one of those days where everything feels like it’s dragging you down? Well, welcome to my world today. It’s dark 🌧️, it’s gloomy 🌫️, it’s rainy ☔, and to top it all off, it’s freezing 🥶. I’m talking “brain fried, fingers numb, can barely focus” kind of cold. All I want right now is to crawl into bed 🛏️, wrap myself in warmth, and get lost in a good book 📚. But no, I’m stuck here in class, feeling every minute stretch into an hour 🕰️.

Math 🧮 class is already kicking my ass. Letters instead of numbers? 🔢➡️🔤 Are you serious? Who thought that was a good idea? I’ve got another test coming up, and honestly, I’m so lost right now that I don’t even know where to start 🤯. And the students here? Quiet as mice 🐭 until I get an answer wrong. Then, suddenly, everyone wants to chime in with the right one. Like, what? Where was all that confidence when the question was first asked? 😒

I’ve still got lunch to get through, but I know exactly what I need—an egg roll 🥢 and pork fried rice 🍚. Because at this point, food is the only thing keeping me sane. And after that? Another class until 3:30 🕞. Yep, today is just one of those days where everything feels like too much, and I’m ready for it to be over.

Anyone else feeling like this? Because I’m just done. 😩

Next semester, I’ll be taking 3 classes when I start. I need to experience college life on this campus without so many classes in the way. I want to check out what kind of clubs they have. I’m not into sororities and all that crap 💩. My brain 🧠 needs the space, and I’ve decided that’s okay. Plus, I’ve got a new strategy: only morning classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Why? Because that’s when my mom works in the building, lol 😂 free ride! 🚗 But on the other days, I’m sleeping in 😴 and taking afternoon and evening classes. I need time to sleep in, recharge, and just exist.

The tricky part? Trying to find people my age to hang out with 🙃. I’m awkward, introverted, and right now I’m stuck in rooms with high schoolers who don’t seem to realize they’ve graduated 🎓. They’re acting like they’re still in high school, wanting the same treatment 🤦🏾‍♀️. Uh, guys… you’re grown-ups now? No one’s gonna hold your hand ✋🏾, remind you to buy books, or print out stuff for you.

I’ve got classmates complaining about having to buy books 📖 for homework or whining because professors aren’t printing out their pages 🖨️. Like, seriously? 🙄 This is real life 🌍. You can’t expect a job to coddle you, and college is the same way. Welcome to adulthood—time to face it 🧍🏾‍♀️. It’s so obvious who just graduated high school. The entitlement vibes are strong 💅🏾, and I just can’t. 😶

But hey, maybe next semester will be different. I’ll be focused on me, and hopefully, I’ll stumble across a few people who actually get it. Maybe. Eventually. 🤷🏾‍♀️

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