Awkwardly Introverted

  Omg it’s 12:58 am & I’m listening to that rain just pouring down ugh 😩 I got class tomorrow, I don’t want to hold an umbrella 🌂. I only love rainstorms when I’m home with nothing to do or just chilling 😂. But right now, it’s one of those nights where I’m just trying to get through it all.  The rain was so loud outside, but I drowned it out with my fan. Of course, it was a bit too warm, and if I took my shirt off, I’d get cold. Classic. Eventually, I managed to relax my whole body, preparing for the inevitable journey to sleep, where things finally make sense—like being home with my dog, my house, and well, being rich. If only. I really hope the rain stops by tomorrow morning. The last thing I want to deal with is walking in the rain with a soggy umbrella. The weather is supposed to clear up around 10, just in time for me to catch the bus. But I’m honestly praying that NJ Transit doesn’t pull one of their “we’re late” acts, as usual. The 171 is the closest bus to me, b...

There’s nothing quite like that moment when you finally collapse into bed after a long, exhausting day. The second your body hits the mattress, it's like an instant wave of relief washes over you. The blankets wrap you up just right, the pillow molds perfectly under your head, and for the first time all day, you feel at peace.   This is the moment you’ve been looking forward to since you first got out of bed this morning. Let’s be real—some days feel like a never-ending marathon. Work, school, responsibilities, social interactions (ugh), and just  existing  can drain every ounce of energy. The struggle to stay awake in class, the never-ending to-do lists, and the brutal cold outside? Yeah, all of it just makes that final moment of getting under the covers even  sweeter . And don’t even get me started on the  bedtime rituals.  That feeling of throwing on your comfiest pajamas, turning off the lights, grabbing your phone to do some mindless scrolling, or crac...

  Today was one of those days that left me completely drained. Between morning classes, walking all over campus, a night class, and tutoring, my body feels like it’s been through a marathon. 🏃🏾‍♀️💨 Add my period into the mix, and it’s no wonder I’m shaking from sheer exhaustion. 😵🏾‍💫 Thankfully, no cramps or pain this time—just the heaviness that makes everything feel ten times harder. The night class is worth it, though. My current math professor actually helps me understand the material, and I’ve been passing quizzes and tests. ✏️📚 That’s something I’ve struggled with before, so this class, as exhausting as it is, is necessary. It’s a far cry from my old math professor, who failed me—I saw them today, but I didn’t bother saying anything. 🚶🏾‍♀️💨 Moving forward is all that matters. After such a long day, I tried to relax by playing Sims 4 for a bit (they finally brought back burglars! 🏡🦹🏾‍♂️), but even that felt like too much. By 11 p.m., I was in bed, barely hanging o...